Talking with Jesus

March 25, 2025

Lord, you hate when I grumble, casually despising your sovereignty. So, I combat this with a grateful heart. Thank you, Lord, for this life I get to live. Why me? I deserve nothing. You have given me everything and more. You love me. You agape love me. You’ve blessed me on this earth. Friends, opportunities, so much. And beyond this world, this life. Blessing of the Beloved.

March 27, 2025

Lord, hi. I’m sorry I have been distracting myself with the world. My mind and heart have become more clogged. Please clear it. And fill my mind, my heart, my soul, with you. I want you, first and foremost. I keep letting the spirit of laziness take over. I declare it out! I will not be conformed to this world. I will be transformed by the renewal of my mind, that by testing I may discern what is your will, God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

I, through an unfortunate loophole of Instagram reels, listened to part of a podcast. The question/point was brought up - what are your weak spots? Where does the devil wiggle his way into your life? Hmm, Jesus, help me pinpoint my weak spots. Help me strengthen them in your name and by your Spirit!!!

March 28, 2025

Good morning, Lord. The concert is tonight. Do I go? Before that, what should my day look like today? Immediately I am thinking about to-do lists/plans. Column 15. Nanny. Dog sitting. Plans with my people. Meeting tonight. But can’t make that. Man today — oop workout. Today feels hectic. I’ve let things build up. Maybe I should change to work clothes. Then straight Column after Annie’s/TJs run for props for Column photo shoot… Lord, thank you. For the busy days. For things to do. For people to minister to. For work, financial prosperity, motivation, but more for discipline. Emma and I, that’s the word. Discipline. For you and your glory.

March 30, 2025

Thank you for today, Lord. Rid our minds of distraction. Fill this place and my heart and soul with your presence.

March 31, 2025

Good morning Lord. I want to work out. Just organizing. But, I want more to make time for you. Discipline. You keep nudging me to your word. I stayed up late writing last night. I want to get that out. I know you want me to get that out. Thank you that my writings can be encouraging. Whether I fully believe it or not, that is the truth you share with me, so thank you for using me. I am honored.

April 2, 2025

Good morning. Man, waking up was hard this morning. But Lord, thank you for waking me up! It is a beautiful day. I am so blessed. I texted [job connection] this morning. Lord, if you want this for me then open that door for communication or if you want something else for me then okay! Guide me there. You remind me to look to you first and to continue seeking you in my day to day duties. Inviting you in with everything. I do. I like that. You are my constant companion.

March 8, 2025

A friend asked me how dad was yesterday. I was like honestly, good question. I reached out to him today.

Lord, thank you for the crowd, the army of prayer warriors I have in this life. Taylor, Kolbie, Audrey, Sammie, Amy, Anna, Emma, Sab, Elaina, Sofia, Marin, Caroline, Dev, Cate, …

Let Satan fall and shrivel into his true weakness today. Not today Satan! You’re not getting to me or my family.

May 14, 2025

Good morning! Thank you Jesus for another day. I have a bad headache. Pretty sure it’s from falling down the stairs. Lol I can’t believe that happened. My back also hurts a lot. And my butt. Lord heal me! Thank you in advance. And thank you that Sammie and I laughed so hard that our stomachs hurt. More funny because I am really okay! Haha thank you for the dear friend I have in Sammie.

May 24, 2025

LORD, RESTORE. MY. FAMILY. MEND. BROKEN. HEARTS. I CAST SATAN OUT. YOUR SPIRIT. COME IN. OVERFLOW. YOUR. SPIRIT. THANK YOU FOR THE BLESSING OF YOUR BELOVED.

May 26, 2025

Thank you, Lord, for replacing the spirit of abandonment with your Spirit of Fatherhood.

June 5, 2025

In Barcelona! Leaving early in the morning. We’ve done a lot of walking/exploring and sleeping. Not much sitting and reflection. But, I don’t want to lose that.

Lord, you are so good. Thank you for this trip. We’ve worked so hard for this, but also, and more, you have provided for this to happen. So thank you. As I’m going into the next chapter then, post Europe job, how little faith must I have to think you wouldn’t provide in the same way, if not more? You just spoke that over me, thank you Lord.

June 14, 2025

Good morning! Lord, I miss this time with you! I must make this time with you happen. I already feel more ready for the day. Your peace filling this space. Why did I just get the train of thought of being an unemployed loser? What in the world, get out of here Satan. Lord, fill me with your truth! Life in words! I was even thinking about this last night, that G and I joke around with the whole fatty thing, but we are so fit! I don’t feel it as much because I haven’t worked out/moved much, but overall, we should stop speaking that over ourselves. Because even jokes can cling to our minds and grow to real opinions about ourselves, that we are fat and out of shape and gross and ugly etc. Lord, we don’t need these thoughts here. No more! No! More!

June 15, 2025

I was so tired last night and G wanted to go out on the town. I was so so so tired and felt ugly and fat. Why?? Well and I didn’t really work out really except for walking in the heat. Anyways, it’s a new day today. Good morning, Lord. Oh one more thing is anytime I am having a less-than-ideal time here, I feel more bleh because look at where I am!! But, I can be grateful and not feeling 100%. Okay, nowww let’s get into the word and into what you have for me today, Lord. “The Vessel. Write.” Okay, today? Okay. “For all is vanity” “A Striving After Wind” inspired by today’s Ecclesiates reading. Okay. “… But God is the one you must fear” “The end of the matter… fear God and keep his commandments”

Oh my goodness, Lord, Happy Fathers Day! You are such a good, good Father.