Side Note

December 28, 2024

Side note from the reflection of an old journal entry:

From May 2024:

Man, you know what? I know Satan is crafty, coming at our weaknesses, and the Lord has revealed at least one of mine. Anxiety, overthinking. Satan knows how to feed and seep lies in my mind so that if I let them enter and fester, I become an anxious wreck. He knows I care so deeply for people, so he feeds that they feel the opposite. He knows I love health, activity, and nutrition, so they are ‘off‘, he is the one who makes me feel off, and imposter syndrome hits. The lies that I don’t know anything about anything. He comes at my core values that are not my faith because God is unshakeable. But those things are, I am, without Christ. But with Christ, I am unshakeable, and those things are beautiful additions.

I let myself hit a low point. I gave up on the battle, but God never gives up. He lets me go through these seasons so that I can be here, seeing how the fullness of God enters and overflows and no things can stop me, not schemes of the devil, nothing, as I have the Holy Spirit within me, and as the living breathing word of God is consumed and absorbed into my heart and soul so much so that it overflows to pour out to others.

You are so good, Lord, You remain faithful. You are steadfast in love.

Matthew 12:34 ~ “… For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks”

Let my heart reflect yours, Lord, my words be from you.

Psalm 34:18

You are near to me, as I am brokenhearted, but as I am righteous through you, I call out, I have cried for help! You deliver me, are delivering me, and have delivered me out of all my troubles. You saved me. You have saved me. Crushed in spirit. You redeem. Hallelujah.