From the Notes App

June 4, 2024

It’s so beautifully intricate, the way I can, in reading the following note from a couple of years ago in my little notes app, be brought back to the exact feeling in this moment. I forget about a lot of things that go on, a lot of feelings I feel, as do many, but going back through my notes every once in a while where I lay out the spectrum of thoughts and feelings over the years has been, well, reflective, encouraging, interesting, …

From December 28, 2022

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I feel as though I am in no place to be loved. I’m hurting. I’m overwhelmed. I need space.

Dad hugs me,

“Tell me it’s all gonna be okay”

I comfort him.

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There is so much to be grateful for.

A God and a family who loves me.

Life. Health. Blessings.

Trials and tribulations that are building my testimony

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I am hurt. I am tired. I am sad. I feel unproductive. I feel as if I have checked zero boxes off of my list of things I want to do. Done zero for myself. But who’s fault is that other than my own?

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I come to You, Lord. Right now I am weary and burdened. I need the rest that you provide. I want to take your yoke and learn from you, as you are gentle and humble in heart, and I want to, and will, find rest in my soul. Your yoke is easy and your burden is light. Thank you Father.

[personal rendition of Matthew 11:28-30]